unexplainble

im feeling so odd does she feel that I am a hassle?

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it feels like 2 years back.

i really wanna recieve a msg a call or any form of contact cause im really suffering very painfully

i really miss talking to you.

i dreamt of you.
i really do miss you.

hope u go home soon

then i realized that i know what was wrong with me which makes you feel insecure too. I haven't been expressing my feelings to you because it has always been a habit to tell you every single thing. I'm willing to share with you but will you want to listen to me again....?

post 101
Yiruma - Kiss the Rain

RS 1
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

CHORUS
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain

even though this is more of a piano song, the lyrics above represent the true meaning of the song. Part of the song describes my feelings.

100 post.
all i needed was 1 more mth.

I will be determine to work hard. i promise no more fooling around.

I will be determine to work hard. i promise no more fooling around.

Life is short. Love, play, and embrace everything without any regret

i will remember this quote for my life

the day she move her stuff

我又无意间再一次让你生气

why are you such a wonderful person?

I need someone to talk to but theres no one.

im worry about the things is happening around me, perhaps this is the only place that i confront to. dad just had an operation again on this stomach problem now in recovering state and mommy recently had asthma relapse which made me worried for her. the last time her relapse was when i was in primary 4 and that she had to go to the hospital to stay over. i really wish this will not happen again. im worried.

my own personal trouble is at my job i really need to move on from here to the new site but till now there is no response from them except from the news from my 'intell'. hopefully the news from my intell will be accurate.

i realise you didn't want me to bother you anymore.

lies

I realize what I do are all lies to you

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you never understand.
i trying to make a balance between friends and you but your behavior is getting more and more ridiculous.
all you think is about I'm lying.
if i don't bother why would i even say sorry in the first place.

closed

blog closed.

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reflected. i was selfish.

you were the pillar of my support. you did everything for me. you make me feel like the top of the world but I crash my whole with a meteor. killing everything thing that I ever love. I wanted to get things back to normal but time didn't wait for me. I realize time was passing day by day but I realize it too late. if I could speed time up or even bring back time I really will make it up to you. I'm sorry for the pain I bought you, I'm sorry for all the miseries I bought you, Im truly sorry.

day two

unfair for u

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mood

no mood for anything

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habit?

she felt she wasn't 1st anymore. I myself can't take it much more. not contacting each other help? somehow it's driving me nuts I just can't figure out whether is it a habit or otherwise. I hate my sleepless nights.

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feelings

how much more can I take

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didn't we say we have to take things slowly? flaring up at me won't make me feel any better. It will only push me further and further away, at times you really don't understand how I felt. sometimes you just felt that you were always correct. Deep down inside me, i just need some freedom, deep down inside me i was never happy and lastly deep down inside me there was the 1 reason. Control will only make me more rebellious.