You just told me that you despite me cause im not earning as much as you are. I realized you have been repeatedly saying this for so many years. Now it finally have dawn on to me. I am more financially stabled then you are, I can drive my own car, I dont need to endanger my life and naomi life in your car.

I don't know where to go now.
I feel useless and hopeless.
 Perhaps I shouldn't have step into your world.

I dont feel going home anymore.

Perhaps i should just leave since im burden to everybody

Just shut up rico tan you have no fucking rights to open your mouth.

i guess i made the right choice so just keep my mouth shut.

As Naomi is growing up, gaps between us seems to be wider. we no longer communicate with each other nicely. I can't control my temper and you can't control your enthusiasm to share your knowledge to your friends. I really don't know how to communicate with you anymore... I try to talk to you whenever I can however you spend most of your energy on your phone. I don't know where to go, who to talk to.