Wednesday, December 12, 2012
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Friday, November 23, 2012
1st Month of Singlehood
Hi Jerica,
It has past one month since we broke up. As you know this is one of the hardest
phrases of my life and I believe this was just a small portion of what you have
been through.
I had
prepared this letter for since a long time but I am just waiting for the
correct timing. Even you have left me and carry on to explore other options in
your life, I am still here waiting for your comeback because I had done all
those already and I am sick of it. The reason why I have carried on loving you
endlessly with my heart is because I have actually made my final choice. I know
you must have thought I am crazy and you might not even be coming back to
me. Yes, I agreed you should explore
your options and get to know more people and if you decide to make a U-turn to
make back to me, I am willing to accept you.
You asked
if you have any physical contact with any guys and my answer was I dare not
think about it. I have carefully thought about it for a long time and the
answer has popped up to me was that even you have any physical contact with any
guys, I wouldn’t even mind because eventually I had made my choice.
I have
emotionally cut you into pieces and I tried to stitch it up piece by piece but
I failed stitching you back. The bridge of trust has become very unstable and
you had to look for a solid ground, separating us apart. Even if you really
look for the solid ground, I will still continue to build the bridge alone.
Another example is trust is just like a compound interest, if there is no
withdrawal it will just get more, but when there is a withdrawal the interest
will drop.
I emphasize
again that by writing this letter, it is not to make you confuse and try to win
you back. These are things that I believe it have not spoken to anyone before.
Likewise you’re the only person who truly understands me. It is just like the painting I draw during my
birthday, it was a lovely field with plenty of flowers and houses. The houses
seem to look uncertain as no one knew what was there. It is dark and gloomy; I
believe that is how you feel at this moment. With bits and pieces you had filled my life, I
came to know I truly love you.
Dearica, I love you.
23/Nov/2012
Ben-nen-roo no.1
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
I feel the wind blow in this place
There I see the stars beyond this window pane
Shining so bright
Here in this night
Here I feel the sense of love
Deep in my heart I cry for you
Every tear that fall feels like a wound
The stars in the sky, gently shines
Taking away my pain
I hear a voice gently saying
Don't be afraid
I feel the warmth come over me
As I sleep in their embrace
And even though I
Do not have the strength to go on
Even though I tried to hold on
This love will never ever be meant for me
But I'll keep on smiling
Even though my dreams won't come true
I'll remember every moment with you
Like the stars that shines forever
I'll treasure my love
For you……
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
during this phase of my lifetime, i faced quite a number of uncertainly and frustration. because i have keep expecting something in return. throughout this phase, i learn that i should not have expect anything in return because the only thing i require was your happiness. oh well i do love you and hope you will come back to me but what matter the most should be your happiness. I truly hope you are happy at this moment and remember I am doing all this willingly.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Friday, November 16, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
This might sound corny!
Lovely are Your dwelling places
Thirsty, I come after You
Jesus my joy, my reward,
Your love restoring my soul
Now I'm Yours and You are mine
And from my heart a song will rise
I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
I love You, I love You, I love You
And my heart will follow wholly after You
Jesus there is none beside You
Righteous, ruler of the earth
Nations will come and bow down
Name over all names I sing You praises
And all that I can say to You is
I don't know how you feel about me now but I know that I still love you.
I know I have been contacting your friends and I have stop all these nonsense. My friends do not know what is going on and I will not let them know too. Having said that the only person that I can talk to is you and hopefully one day we can sit down and allow me to express how I feel.
I love you Jerica.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Friday, November 9, 2012
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
This afternoon, I saw this old couple. It was raining like cats and dog, the old man held with an umbrella and went to the car alone. He drove the car up the loading bay, got off the car and fetch his wife with the tiny umbrella to the car. Hugging each other tightly and didn't want to get his wife wet. Gently open the car door and let her in.
That was so heart warming.
Good morning :) hmmm boo boo have you been good yesterday? Daddy is not around you must take care of mummy okay :) be good I will find more goodies for you :)
How about you mummy? I hope you're doing great and rest well today! :) all the best to your exam in coming Sunday!
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Monday, November 5, 2012
day 1 of no contact
This is the first day of us not being in contact with each other. The bravest decision I ever made. I really hope even during this period when you start to miss me, you will call/message me.
Maybe lets define what other said to you when they say you deserve a better guy, It doesn't really mean to find another guy that is better. It could also mean if the guy has improve in a better way.
I do treasure the moment together with you. And I truly hope you will come back home soon. I miss you.
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Monday, October 15, 2012
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