1st Month of Singlehood

Hi Jerica, It has past one month since we broke up. As you know this is one of the hardest phrases of my life and I believe this was just a small portion of what you have been through.

I had prepared this letter for since a long time but I am just waiting for the correct timing. Even you have left me and carry on to explore other options in your life, I am still here waiting for your comeback because I had done all those already and I am sick of it. The reason why I have carried on loving you endlessly with my heart is because I have actually made my final choice. I know you must have thought I am crazy and you might not even be coming back to me.  Yes, I agreed you should explore your options and get to know more people and if you decide to make a U-turn to make back to me, I am willing to accept you.

You asked if you have any physical contact with any guys and my answer was I dare not think about it. I have carefully thought about it for a long time and the answer has popped up to me was that even you have any physical contact with any guys, I wouldn’t even mind because eventually I had made my choice.

I have emotionally cut you into pieces and I tried to stitch it up piece by piece but I failed stitching you back. The bridge of trust has become very unstable and you had to look for a solid ground, separating us apart. Even if you really look for the solid ground, I will still continue to build the bridge alone. Another example is trust is just like a compound interest, if there is no withdrawal it will just get more, but when there is a withdrawal the interest will drop.

I emphasize again that by writing this letter, it is not to make you confuse and try to win you back. These are things that I believe it have not spoken to anyone before. Likewise you’re the only person who truly understands me.  It is just like the painting I draw during my birthday, it was a lovely field with plenty of flowers and houses. The houses seem to look uncertain as no one knew what was there. It is dark and gloomy; I believe that is how you feel at this moment.  With bits and pieces you had filled my life, I came to know I truly love you.

Dearica, I love you.

                                                                          23/Nov/2012

Ben-nen-roo no.1