i guess i made the right choice so just keep my mouth shut.

As Naomi is growing up, gaps between us seems to be wider. we no longer communicate with each other nicely. I can't control my temper and you can't control your enthusiasm to share your knowledge to your friends. I really don't know how to communicate with you anymore... I try to talk to you whenever I can however you spend most of your energy on your phone. I don't know where to go, who to talk to.

I realised it is getting more and more about your feelings and not about my or our feelings towards to issues.

I find this very frustrating. Whenever I tried to express my, the doors simply just shut by itself. You don't listen any more and I decided not to explain any more.

Perhaps I have done a lot of things to hurt you in the past. But if I still want to fool around, I won't have to consider so much about our marriage.

You gave up so many times but I still hold on. However I can't do this alone, I am tired.

I'm tired that I cant express out my feelings to you nor to anyone else.

I guess I better sleep now.

The end?

is being responsible a wise choice?

Feeling emo.

Am I not important anymore? my feelings is not worth caring anymore?